It's been about two months since I'm back in KL, for good. To be honest, I still feel a little off about the fact that I'm no longer going back to Melbourne as a student. And the fact that some of my friends flew back to Melb recently either for studies or work, kinda upsets me, especially when they post pictures from melb in facebook or instagram. Before I left melb, I frequently wonder how do we come home when we are no longer the person we were when we left. I wasn't anticipating to come home at all. I was still living in denial when I first came home. I thought coming back to a comfort zone would be fine, but my tears proved me wrong. I left my heart in Melb and I wanted to go back so badly.
Back then when I was in Melb, I wake up to my own liking, then I would check on the weather deciding what to wear. Buying coffee from Kere Kere in uni was always the routine I look forward to and most of my lunches in uni are sushi rolls from Momo (Urghh I miss it!) Cooking and baking were much easier then as well, since we know exactly where the stuffs are kept and there are limited things we have in our kitchen. And those days, coming home during holidays was always beyond happy.
Aww it's crazy how 3.5 years flew by, just like that.
Sometimes I wake up in the morning still feeling foreign. But this feeling will definitely diminish over time. I know it's still home, but it's just different now. We are back home to new purpose and responsibility. It's rather strange at the beginning, but happy and good to say that I've been learning to adapt to this new chapter of life. (And my coffee habit has apparently decreased, no idea whether is that a good or bad thing.) So I'm now a KL girl but STILL with an appetite of a Melb girl!!
I often get the questions of why didn't I get a job there or why didn't I stay longer in melb. Frankly I dislike answering questions like this. All I wanna say is, home is still home, where we grew up and where our families are. To me, coming home is more like an obligation rather than a choice. It's undeniably true that jobs there are of better pays and environment, but I just don't belong there. I see more of my opportunities here, so I just didn't wanna waste my time there.
Hopefully things and stuffs will get into place eventually and I'm looking forward to start my career life! Okay okay okay, I know this is shallow. I should really enjoy to the fullest while being unemployed, according to most of my working friends. But it sucks leading an unemployed life without income and a car of my own.
I'm so looking forward to the unknown in the future! :) Be it good or bad, it is still part of learning and growing up, can't wait!
Just too many sweet (and occasionally bitter) memories, in a place I love. :)
xx
